why?

why?
why?
why?

why is it like this when I give in my all for a person and things turn out to be like this
why is it that when I chose to give in my all for him, and when I expect something small in return, all I get is heartaches and tears
how did this happen to me?

I thought I was strong enough
I thought this is just another phrase of my life
I thought I was happy and relieved when I finally ended it
I thought I was finally able to smile again
I thought I was out of this misery officially
but why am I so sad now?
I feel like my heart is tearing apart and he really doesn't give a damn about it

why am I such a failure?

what did I do to deserve this?
I gave in my all, all my love, for him, for this
I changed, things he didn't like, I changed, just to please him
Cause I love him so much
Even when he lied, when he said hurtful words, when he screwed things up,
I sucked it up, cause I had to, cause I knew if I didn't, I would lose him. I knew it.
I knew that's what I have to do for someone like him

Even when I had that tiny hope, hoping that he would change for me, hoping he would be a little nicer, just that tiny hope.. is that too much?

Treat me better. Think about me before you do anything. Is that too much?

Now, we are done. He is gone. And I am dying. I love you so much. But there is no point in carrying on. They say, "It will pass." Yes it will. But I ask, "When?" Just tell me a date.

After all, I am only human.

And I swore to never love again.