I loved you well

I dare you to say I didn't give it my best shot
I dare you to say I didn't give you a second chance
I dare you to say I didn't give you enough time

You have no idea how hard I tried to suppress my emotions for you
You have no idea how hard I controlled my tears for two hours in public
You have no idea how much ache my heart felt and still had to control it
You have no idea how horrible it felt to be eating ice cream halfway and burst into tears
You have no idea how much it hurt when my classmate asked me, "Do you think he knows that you're hurting this much?" and I said no
You have no idea how often times I think of you each day but even when my heart says go, my mind says no
You have no idea how much it hurts to be the one walking away from someone she loves


So if you think I am this changed person that pushed you away, ignored you, and thinks what you say are unimportant, think again.

I loved you well

I expect too much
I draw mind maps and magical illusions about the future I want to be in
I wish for the impossible
And I ask too much
There is nothing wrong with this
It's just that I kept trying to enter in the restricted boundaries
So serve me right for wanting you and wishing more

I miss you and you probably don't
I miss you and I am not allowed to miss you