Why do the lonely people stare up to the sky?

Empty

Very empty. For the first time, this space doesn't give me comfort anymore. The only friend of mine that makes me happy...is different. She stopped giving me comfort, or even a reason to smile at the thought of her. I miss you so much my happy pill. I miss you but I feel like there is nothing I could do about us.

Phobia

I am afraid. I am terrified. I am scared.
Of love. Of anything that relates to getting close with someone.
I am so scared. Of anything. Of everyone.