My future includes, when I'm financially able to support myself and my parents, and I'm at the age whereby I want a kid, I'm gonna buy sperms from a sperm bank.
Reasonings due to :
- Among the years, I've met good and bad men. Bad ones, no future explanation needed. Good ones, they only turned into a stalker once I decided to reject them
- In my own opinion, 99% of men, either they cheat and still be with you, or they leave.
- My future, doesn't involve in me depending on anyone, (yes of course, if I meet some rich fuck and can support my family financially, I'll marry him, but it's for my family. Not for me.).
- Bottom line, I can do anything in the world for my parents.
- But I have my morals, only under special circumstances, then I'll lead to the 'rich marriage' solution.
- Yes I admit, I have trust issues towards men. They all leave, eventually, sooner or later.
- I'm only 23, but right now, I'm only focusing on work and school and of course my parents. But I lost hope for love or any kind of relationship. I've been alone for far too long. I've been too independent to ever need someone to lean on to. Sometimes I feel like a burden when I have to depend on someone. (I'm not trying to self praise myself, but close friends know that, I'm better being alone).
- Working as a part time job currently, I'm working events & nightlife, to earn a 'back up' savings till I graduate and find a decent job. And working events, I get to meet all kinds of people. Rich ones poor ones. I could easily manipulate any rich ones and I can quit degree and just support my family. But thats not for now, or for me in particular. Like I mentioned, my future doesn't involve me depending on anyone. It's all me.
And after saying all these to a friend, his reply was "This is so sad, you're so sad."
Happiness is important, but it isn't to me.
My parent's happiness and leading a comfortable life is more of my priority. I've been alone, unhappy, sad, independent for way too long. I don't need to be happy. I just want them to be happy. That's all.
And this is why...why I'm single for the past 7 years.
