I'm sorry. But I need to grow out of you.

I am sorry for leaving you yet so easily pulled back by your "I miss you(s)"
I am sorry for you're the only reason I've been smiling and crying about for the past one year
I am sorry for doubting you, as much as I want to believe your words
I am sorry for "love" isn't enough
I am sorry for coming up with excuses and yet coming up with facts to diminish any hopes for you
I am sorry for thinking "fate" still exists in us
I am sorry for singing praises about you to people yet secretly knows the faults in us


I am sorry for how I acted.
I am sorry for inventing a you that was impossible to let go. You told me once that you loved me, and that when you were sad, all you wanted was me.
I’m sorry that those things ever stopped being true.
I’m sorry that I still remember that you said them.
I am sorry that I fell in love with a version of you that I invented.
I am sorry that I will never again know you, me, or us.

And most of all, I cannot apologize enough that I am sorry that I love you.

16th Sept'13 / 03:55am