The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to feel
so relieved. When you get your heart broken for the first time, you
can’t imagine loving someone else again or having someone else love you.
You worry about your ex finding love before you do, you worry about
being damaged goods. And then it happens. Someone else loves you and you
can sleep well at night.
The second time you fall in love with someone, it’s going to feel
different. The first time felt like a dream almost. You were untouched,
untainted by anyone. You accepted love with wide open arms and
desperation. “Love me, love me, love me!” So you did. And then it fell
apart and left you shocked to the core. You realized that people could
be cruel and break your heart. You realized that people could stop
meaning the sweet things they said to you just yesterday. So when you go
into it again, you’re going to keep in mind everything that you’ve
learned. You’re going to say, “Love me, love me, love me…until you
don’t. In which case, I would like some advance warning. Thanks!”
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to
compare it to your first love. That’s okay. That’s natural. You’re going
to be studying the new love with judgement and wariness. “My ex never
liked broccoli. Why the hell does this one eat so much broccoli?!”
Discovering that you have the ability to love multiple people who are
different and feel different is initially very jarring. Loving an
unfamiliar body will leave you disoriented and in dire need of a map.
That’s okay too. That’s to be expected. Just ask the new love for
directions.
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to suffer
from a bout of amnesia. You’re going to poke and prod at your lover’s
body and be like, “Wait, how do I do this again? How do I love you? I
think it starts with us having a moment together in some coffee shop,
right?” It’s going to feel scary at first. Falling in love is sort of
like riding a bike though. You never really forget.
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’ll be a more sane
person. Your first love is when you get all of your insanity out. You
behave like an insane monster because your mind is freaking out about
all these new powerful feelings. By the second time, however, you have
an idea of what works and what doesn’t. It’s by no means perfect. The
insanity will make a cameo at some point. “Peek a boo. I’m here! Hope
you didn’t forget about me!” But you can usually shoo it away after
awhile.
The second time you fall in love with someone, you will hopefully have better sex. Do not quote me on this.
The second time will not be the first time. The first time is an
insane magical life gift that you can never reclaim. But that’s okay.
The second time is more real anyway. The second time can involve some
amazing love.
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