How could you?

It's so upsetting to think that when I let myself, my heart, my feelings to go wild, to fall, I get hurt.
To think that I give it my all and try to make things work, to try to be the good girl for someone, shit happens. I don't understand why or how would someone like you do this to me. How about the things we shared? The late nights talking till our cheek bones hurt, the skype video calls when you tell me how much you miss me and how much you can't wait to see me. What about those? Times when you didn't have a data plan and wanted to talk to me so bad. When you traveled to bars to look for wifi. When you called abroad just to tell me you miss me. When you woke up from your sleep just to pick my call. When you call me boo and all the sweet nothings. Did any of that mean anything to you? I let my heart down and fall for you and this happens. I don't know how. I don't know why. Shit happens. Every single new guy I meet/date, only teaches me not to trust the next one. I haven't drop a single tear ever since. And I swore to myself I would not. Even right now, with all the emotions I sustained gushing all over me, I am not gonna drop a single fucking tear.

Asshole, you have no idea how much it hurts.